Friday, August 12, 2011

Dear Mom,

It's been six years now and the pain I feel is still as strong as the night I found out you'd left us.  There are days when I hurt so much it is hard to breathe.  I still have to go to work though, and be around people so I smile and act like everything is ok.

I find it difficult still to even talk about you.  When I do, I have to fight back the tears because I don't want people to think I'm that person.  The one who can't deal with things or control her emotions.

Lately I have been waking up in the middle of the night and I can't go back to sleep.  I lay in bed and I think about you and how much you have missed.  And how much you are missed.

They told me that time would make me feel better.  They lied.


  1. I so very sorry for your loss.

    My mother-in-law (who was like a 2nd mom to me) passed away going on six years this year (November 18th). We still miss her so much. My husband has trouble even mentioning her name. :-(

    I'll be thinking of you today and you are in my prayers.

  2. BFF I am soo sorry about you having lost your mom! I know you miss her sooo very much! I wish that I could make it better and take away your pain, but I can't. You know I love ya and am here for you ANYTIME! Even in the middle of the night if it's just to listen to you cry! :o[