It took me a while to figure out why I was in such a funk.
Then it hit me the other day.
And I think we all know what that means.
It's almost winter.
And that makes me so sad. I'm not even kidding. I totally identify with Seasonal Affective Disorder. Please note that it's initials also spell SAD.
I'm trying to shake this but the changing of the seasons, a difficult decision to make concerning a relationship, miss raven being sick last weekend, not sleeping well at all, and the frenetic pace of school....well, with all that and LIFE....all I've wanted to do lately is just pull the covers up over my head and shut out the world.
What frightens me is that if I am this messed up about fall, what the heck am I going to look like come winter?
The kiddos are wonderful at school and truly, they are the reason right now I am not completely falling apart. They make me laugh despite my depression and were so very sweet when they found out that raven wasn't feeling well. One of them even told me to tell her that they were praying for her. They ask about her every day and are always begging me to tell them stories about her.
One of our favorite times during the day is right after lunch when I read to them. I sit in one of the "comfy" chairs and they sit/lounge on the floor. The girls crochet, the boys...well, the boys are boys, and I read two chapters of our current book. We are reading the "Secret Series". They LOVED the first book: The Name of This Book is a Secret and we are about three chapters from finishing the second book If You're Reading This It's Too Late. I have to tell you, I get a secret thrill when I stop reading and they beg and plead and bargain for me to read "just ONE more chapter, pllllllleeeeeeaaaaaassssseeeeee!!!!!!!!!!" I LOVE it!
I am very much looking forward to this long weekend and have been for a while. I am attending a fiber festival (go figure....more yarn) and am planning on purchasing my very first yarn swift. I can decide on the walnut or cherry. Any suggestions?
My sweater class starts next Wednesday and I am looking forward to that as well. I am planning on doing my gauge swatch(es) tonight and am hoping that goes off without too many issues. Although I am looking forward to this class, I am still a little nervous about it. I love the pattern but am a tiny bit afraid that it may be over my head.
Well....I need to go get ready for school. Yesterday was not a good day at school (not because of my kids) and I am really hoping that today is a better day.