somethings gotta give.....

I used to blog a lot more often. It isn't that I haven't WANTED to blog. It is pretty much that I have been too stressedoutdepressedsadconfusedangryworried to blog. Catch all that? ;)

Things at work at chaotic. Not always bad, but not as good as before. I received some verybadnews this week that I am in the process of (a) trying to comprehend, (b) still trying to absorb, and (c) figuring out how to appeal. It is a rather crushing blow to know that you have poured your entire being into your job only to be told that you don't really deserve all your vacation time so ohbytheway you lose a week. (sigh)

Because of all the stress at work I haven't been sleeping well. The other night I didn't fall asleep until almost two in the morning. I am a person who MUST have her sleep. I was beyond exhausted on Friday and it showed. (Nothing better than a high schooler telling you how rough you look. : P ) I slept late this morning but still ended up with a wicked migraine this afternoon. It is just now almost gone. It was the kind of migraine where you think you just might puke if one more thing penetrates your brain.

Poor miss raven has been so patient. I feel like I never spend enough time with her anymore. Right now she is laying at the foot of the bed chewing on her back paw. She is so talented--the only doggie I know that can fit her ENTIRE back paw into her mouth. Lol! She gnaws on it for a while and then cleans out her ear. She is such a clean little girl. :) The other night she was missing me so much that she sat on my lap, looked up at me with her little head on my chest, and sighed. I rubbed under her chin for a while and she was so happy. I plan on spending most of the day adoring her tomorrow. She deserves it. :)

Willpower

Dear Willpower,

Where did you go? You have been with me for the last two years because we made a deal. You and I would stick together until we accomplished our goal. We were close. We were so close. We are still close but not as close as we were because you deserted me. Why have you left me?

I'm not sure where you went but I really, really need for you to come back. NOW. I am now going in the opposite way because I can't do this alone. PLEASE come back.

Sincerely (and desperately),
Me

ps. PLEASE!!!!

10 Things Tuesday

10 0f my favorite things (in no particular order):

1. miss raven (duh!)
2. pumpkin coffee
3. pumpkin flavored coffee creamer
4. the color pink
5. the beach
6. pumpkin scented candles (are you seeing a pattern?)
7. summer
8. football
9. yarn
10. pumpkin muffins

She wants me to LIE on my blog and other randomness

So, I asked my BFF today..."What should I blog about?" Her response?? Blog about how much you LOVE winter. :-o She wants me to lie on my blog??

So I asked her again....her response??? Blog about how much She LOVES football. She wants me to lie on my blog TWICE??? :-O

So...what should I blog about? My new found love of Grey's Anatomy? (I am SO behind!). The fact that I am a week late sending my niece her birthday card? (I feel AWFUL about that--I really, really do.) The G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S yarn that I got this weekend for some fun new projects? (OMG--can I say GORGEOUS?!?!) The ADORABLE new little shirt I got for miss raven? (she looks delicious in it!) I know! I'll blog some more about my job....

Last week (after Tuesday) got better. Today was actually good. I was SUPER busy today and that is no understatement but it was a good busy. I am encouraged because I haven't been as stressed out as I was for those couple of weeks. I am not silly enough to think that I won't have any more stressful days for the rest of the year, but I am trying to work out a better way to deal with them. That's progress, right?

Yesterday I made chili. It has been chili-weather up here and my roommate was going to make chili so I copied her. Only I got creative and decided to try something new. I made chili with buffalo meat. It is a little "gamey" but very tasty. I impress myself sometimes. :)

The football gods were smiling upon me yesterday. (come now, you didn't think I would go through a whole post and not say ANYthing about football, did you--quit rolling your eyes, you-know-who...) The redskins lost (BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!), the giants lost (the Saints came marching in) AND......wait for it......wait.........the eagles lost, too! Just perfect and proof positive that God does in fact love the Cowboys the best. ;)

Ten Things Tuesday...

Ten things I am thankful for about my job (since I have been complaining about it so much lately):

1. I have a group of pretty amazing teachers to work with.
2. I love interacting with the students.
3. The hours are pretty good most of the time.
4. There are WAY more good parents then not-so-good parents.
5. I have really, really good benefits.
6. I get most hoildays off.
7. I met my BFF at my job.
8.-10. ok. I'll have to get back with you for these.

The leaves, they are a changing...

It is definetly fall. If I am supremely lucky I will get one more go-round of warm(ish) weather thanks to Indian summer, but the cold is creeping, er, forcing itself upon me. That makes me sad.

It's chilly today. I have a pumpkin candle and a mulled cider candle burning and they smell delicious. I had a yummy cup of pumpkin coffee while I snuggled in my bed perusing my brand new crochet book. (The book is FABULOUS! I can't WAIT to make most of the stuff in there!) The only thing missing was pumpkin coffee creamer. Someone PLEASE start stocking your shelves with it. I am getting DESPERATE! miss raven is snuggled with me. I love when she looks at me with her sleepy face. She is beyond sweet.

I had a nice weekend. It was very relaxing and I didn't think of school once. Not until I checked my e-mail a few hours ago to find that someone that I was depending on to do something tomorrow bailed on me at 4:37 this morning. Now mind you, I'm not in charge of what they were supposed to be doing anymore because it got taken away from me. I will most likely be told to fix it, though. I know I am being outrageously vague, but, in this day and age, where ANYONE can find out things online, I don't want to be accused of anything. Jobs are hard to come by right now and I have bills to pay.

Football was good to me this weekend. My COWBOYS won!!!! Whoo-hoo!!! (Although, when you are playing a team that is 0-4, should you REALLY need to go into DOUBLE overtime to beat them? I think not!) My LONGHORNS won!!!!! Hook 'em Horns! The Buckeyes won. Yea. I mean...YEA!!!!!! :) AND.....if all that wasn't good enough....the redskins LOST!!!!! Yes, indeed, it was a good football weekend for me.

If March (spring) comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb, what is to be said about October (fall)? Someone tell me, please.....

To blog or not to blog....

That is in fact, the question. I have been sitting here for about an hour trying to decide if I want to blog or not. I have so much I want to say, so much frustration building up inside of me, but really, I don't think this is the place to share it. I would love to rant and rave about what is going on with my job, however, if it gets back to the wrong people....Well, I like the fact that I actually have a job and am not in a hurry to lose it.

Today wasn't as bad as yesterday was. No major crisis to deal with, just the normal every day nonsense that goes along with the job. I didn't get a chance to read to my K5 class this week and that was a HUGE bummer. Next week is already packed and I am in no hurry to get there. We have a 3 day weekend and I am firmly resolved to put this past week out of my mind and enjoy my weekend.

miss raven is already enjoying hers. We went for a walk when I got home this evening and dinner followed shortly thereafter. Now she is chewing on a new bone. I know, I know, she just got one on Sunday. What can I say? When she sat sniffing at the drawer that I keep the bones in and then looks at me so hopefully, I just had to give in. :)

I hope you have a great weekend. :)

Sort-of Thankful Thursday

I wanted, REALLY wanted to do Thankful Thursday today and I am going to try mightly to, but, well, to say this day was awful would be a gross understatement. :(

So...what am I thankful for???

1. miss raven
2. that I still have a job
3. coffee
4. my BFF and other friends

Is #2 throwing you for a loop? Yeah, me too. I miss the classroom. I miss it a lot.

Ten Things Tuesday...

In random order I present Ten Things you may (or may not) want to know about me:

1. I don't like my middle name. I sign my name with my middle initial, but I don't tell my middle name.
2. When I was younger I wanted to be a nurse, just like my mom. I dropped that idea quickly when I realized that I can't stand the sight of blood...or needles.
3. I haven't been to the doctor in about forever because I am deathly afraid of them. I do however, love the dentist.
4. My favorite toy growing up was Legos. Seriously. The castle system was the BEST!
5. Currently, my favorite TV show is the Biggest Loser.
6. My absolute favorite Mexican food is tamales. My two favorite places to get tamales are Pepe's and my dad's coworker's sister's tamales. If desperate, I will make my own.
7. The best meal my mom ever made while we were growing up was boiled ham, cabbage, and potatoes. The worst meal was hot dog/lima bean casserole. My brother will agree with me on that. The worst meal part, anyway.
8. My brother is one of the coolest, funniest people I know.
9. I sometimes read the dictionary for fun.
10. My favorite Starbucks drink is a Venti, extra-hot, non-fat peppermint mocha. I haven't had one since last Christmas. I may have one tomorrow.

I {heart} the weekend

With my job being as stressful as it is now, I am SO much more thankful for the weekend. Friday night is so blissfully wonderful because I know that I have the WHOLE entire weekend stretched out in front of me. Saturday is lovely because, no matter what I do, it has NOTHING to do with school. Sunday morning and afternoon are nice because they are so relaxing. Plus, it's football season...enough said. ;) Sunday night, though.... Work and reality come crashing back down upon me Sunday night.

Let's not talk about Sunday night right now.

Yesterday was a nice day. The weather was BEE-YOU-TI-FUL!!!!! I am not a fan of autumn, but yesterday was a PERFECT day. Not too hot, for all the hot haters, and not to cold, for me. It was so nice. I even took some pictures:

The seagull picture I took especially for my favorite aunt...she {hearts} seagulls. :)

The water is so relaxing for me. I could sit on those steps all day long and not get bored. Of course, good, no great company always helps. Isn't nice when you can be with someone and not have to say anything at all and still have a good time? Having people like that in my life is so important. I am very blessed to have the friends I have. I don't need a lot of friends, but the ones I do have are so special to me.

Today is football day in America. I {HEART} football. Oh, how I {HEART} football. I'm even getting in to college ball. My Longhorns didn't play yesterday, but Ohio State did and they won. Today my COWBOYS play the Broncos (ponies). I would love to see us win, but......Last week the redskins lost to the Lions. BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! Sorry, still have to laugh at that one. I am looking forward to their game against the Bucs today. Hee-hee. GO BUCS!!!!!

I am not the only one who {hearts} Sunday afternoon. miss raven does, too. Sunday means a new boney. Who wouldn't {heart} that?!?

Eye Candy Friday

Here is my girlie....I know you've missed her. :)

Who doesn't just love that face?!? How could you not?!? :)

miss raven and I have been going for a walk most afternoons when I get home from work. She loves to go for a walk and I need the chance to clear my mind from work. I can honestly say that this is THE most stressful year I think I have ever had. I am strongly considering going back to the classroom next year. I'm not sure that I am cut out to be a principal.

I started to crochet again. It's been a long time! I don't have any pictures to post yet. I'm not making anything big right now, just some baby hats to donate. I have some ideas for a blanket since my log cabin went over so well with the customer. :) I also have a pattern for a FABULOUS sundress for next summer.

I love Friday. Friday night to be specific. It is the beginning of the weekend and there is so much potential. Sunday night is depressing because it is the end of the weekend and the long week is ahead of me. Right now I have the whoooolllllleeee weekend ahead of me and I AM going to enjoy it. :)