Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Dear Winter,
Now it feels like you have been here FORever. Much like a guest who overstays their welcome, you are hanging around. I know there are people that do like you. Please go visit them. They live in places where you are accepted, where you are welcomed with open arms. Go there. Stay there. Let them enjoy you.
I am so tired of you, winter. With your snow and your cold rain and your wind and your short days, I am tired of you. With your long sleeves and sweaters and hats and coats and chapstick and dry skin, I am tired of you. With your shoveling and scraping and salting, I am tired of you. Go away. Take the groundhog with you.
Spring is waiting to visit me and with spring, it's warmer cousin, Summer. I love Spring and I love Summer even more. I am waiting for them with glee. They can't come soon enough.
Begone with you, Winter. Begone.
Sincerely,
melicity
ps. miss raven would like me to add that she also does not like you and wishes you would leave posthaste.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I think today should have been Monday....
The morning wasn't too bad. We had a special assembly this morning for Black History Month. Other than going WAY over the time limit and pretty much taking all of first period, it was fine. Oh, and hearing the kids sing a Michael Jackson son with a great deal more enthusiasm than a praise and worship song didn't thrill me, either.
Anyway. My day was progressing rather nicely until middle school lunch. I hear a knock at my door and a teacher comes in carrying a cell phone. No biggie. I take the phone, the parent has to come get it. That is pretty routine. Then (buh, buh, bummmmm) she hands me a note that she intercepted during her class. Remember the days of writing notes in class:
Do you like me? Check yes_____ or no______
If only the note today had been that simple. I won't get into details because I don't have that kind of blog, but suffice it to say it was pretty nasty. I had to call the parents and DESCRIBE the note. Oh yeah, that was fun.
Next on my list of notsomuchfunthingsthathappenedtoday.....a 6th grader told another 6th grader that she wanted to shank him. Yes, you read that correctly. And no, I do not work in a prison. Would you like to know her reason? She thought he pushed her on purpose. Turns out, it was most likely an accident, she just got mad. Then I find out, much later, that she has been bullying other kids in the class. Guess what I get to do tomorrow?
And finally, because things like this seem to happen in three's, at dismissal time I had one of my high school teachers call and tell me he caught two kids kissing. WHY?!?! The rule at my school is no PDA. You don't have to like it, you can have different views. It is our school and we have our rules. So, I ask who the kids were. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?! It is one of my best seniors and one of my best juniors. WHY?!?! The girl and her mother come to my office first. She comes in kind of "aw, shucks" like and is laughing about it. Then I have to drop the hammer. She is suspended. She cries, I try not to cry. She thinks it sucks. Guess what? Me, too. She is convinced that her boyfriend's parents will hate her. They won't. She thinks this sucks. Me, too. Call the boy in. Talk to him. He is stoic, but trying not to cry, I think. I am barely keeping it together at this point. Call the boy's mom. She understands, supports me, agrees. I hang up and burst into tears. Today, my job sucks.
I have to be fair and consistent though, no matter how tough it is and with those two, it was tough! I found myself wishing that the teacher hadn't seen what he saw or that he was mistaken. He wasn't and I trust him. He has no reason to lie. I just suspended two other kids a month or so ago for the same thing so how can I not this time? No matter how much I like these kids, and I REALLY do, what would it say about me if I just swept it under the rug? How could I face the other two students, let alone their parents if I let this one go? What kind of impression would it give the rest of the high school? If nothing else, I want them to know that I am fair and consistent and the rules apply to everyone, no matter how much history I may have with that particular student.
Did I mention my job sucks today? At least I didn't have a parent hang up on me today, right?
Monday, February 22, 2010
Hello, Monday....
I had a great weekend, though. I got to spend some time with a good friend and miss raven got to hang out with her mini me. Don't you just love being with someone who totally gets you? I only know a couple of people like that so when I get to be with one of them I ALWAYS enjoy myself.
I got a really nice e-mail from another friend of mine. It is always nice to know that there are people out there that really do appreciate what you do at work. You know, instead of hanging up on you. ;)
I got an e-mail from my nephew today. I told you he was brilliant! It was a book that he created online. Little Red Riding Hood and a Giant. I see a Pulitzer in the kid's future. Really.
My BFF is REALLY coming to visit!!!! I am SOOOOOO excited! Really. I absolutely can't wait until she comes!!! We are going to have so much fun!!!
I am obviously Not Me-ing today. Get over it.
I Wii-ed today.
Speaking of the Wii, guess what I found at Target? A PINK Wii remote! Whoo-hoo!!!! Saving pennies for that! :)
One final thought of randomness.....tonight at 5:15 guess what I saw outside? DAYLIGHT!!!!! It was still light outside! Gaining minutes every day and LOVING it! Summer is coming. Really! :)
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Thankfulness...
I am very, VERY thankful for my amazing friends. Those that know me know that I do not need many friends. I am an intensely private person and choose to tell only what I want known, which isn't usually much. You may THINK you know a lot about me, but chances are, you don't, because what you know is mostly superficial. Most of you don't KNOW me, really. My friends are people that I have chosen carefully. I have a lot of people that I am friendly with, but that is way different that being friends with someone. I like to think I am a fairly friendly person, although I know that some people think that I am a snob when they first meet me. I'm stand-offish. More shy, really, than anything else.
The fact that my friends, all, hmmmmmmm......four of them, stick by me through everything, is amazing to me. I know better than anyone what kind of person I am. Heck, most of the time I get on my OWN nerves. I can be whiny, stubborn, pessimistic, and boorish. I am so thankful that I have friends who not only put up with that but also tell me when I am acting like that because sometimes, honestly, I don't even realize it.
I am also thankful for my family. For whatever reason, it seems like someone in my family ALWAYS knows when I need a phone call pick me up or a card, just because. I could go on and on pontificating about how wonderful my family is but I fear it would sound rather, well, trite. All those cliche's that you hear about families? Yep, my immediate family falls into them. Can count on them for anything, always there no matter what time of the day...that's the kind of family that I have and I feel beyond blessed because of it.
Not a long post today. Just a final thought (ugh. That sounds so Jerry Springer-ish!). Be the person that makes the "Just because" phone call today. Call someone in your family, call a friend. Tell them how much they mean to you. Tell them you love them. Tell them all of those cliches and mean them.
love you, lori, hannah, freddie, renee, dad, matt, susanne, daisy, nikolas, suzi, janet!!!! :)
Friday, February 19, 2010
The thoughts that are bouncing around in my brain....
Enjoy!! :)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
wordless wednesday, errrr....
(note the floating kibble in the bowl. does she care? no. she knows i will get it out for her.)
miss raven: (jumps on the bed, sits in my lap facing me) B-E-L-C-H! thanks, mommy! that was great!
Can you see why I love her so much?!?! :)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Dear Fleece/sweat pants,
But, oh, how you trick me. You make me think that everything is ok. That it won't hurt to eat that "little" extra bit of ice cream. You'll stretch and make more room for me. Eat another piece of chocolate...it will be fine...you'll still fit me. I listen to your soft and soothing voice and give in. "You're right!", I think, "This little bit extra and that little bit more won't hurt me at all! After all, I shoveled A LOT last week! I deserve a little treat (or two, or three, or....).
Now, dear fleece/sweat pants, I must go back to work. I can't wear you to work, although I would LOVE to. I must wear your dressier cousin, the WORK pant. The work pant is no where near as forgiving as you are. It taunts me as I attempt to wrestle the zipper up. "Surely I haven't eaten THAT much more! The fleece/sweat pants told me it was ok! THEY still fit me!" The work pant mocks me as I try to make the button and the button hole meet. It makes fun of me for listening to you fleece/sweat pants.
I must not listen to you anymore. I will still wear you for your comfort at the end of a long day, but I can no longer let you beguile me into thinking that all those extra bites will magically disappear and I won't be affected by them. I am covering my ears and singing every song I know to block out your siren song. You will not win, fleece/sweat pant. You will NOT win.
Sincerely,
me
Friday, February 12, 2010
My day (what a boring title!)
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Thankful Thursday!!!
-good friends! you know who you are! ;)
-a loving family--i miss you guys!
-my dad's surgery went well
-the snow finally stopped!!
-we are shoveled out!
-peppermint mocha coffee creamer all year long! whoo-hoo!!!!!!!!!
-fun yarn to crochet with
-heat!!
-a week long, unexpected, vacation. ;)
-yummy smelling candles
-homemade blankets
-laughter
-the sound of miss raven snoring
-parents who don't think that their offspring is perfect and actually teach them personal responsibility
-teachers that do their jobs and don't make me worry about what is going on in their classrooms
-sunshine
there's more, but that's all for now. :) tomorrow i think i will make banana bread. that sounds so good right now. fresh, hot from the oven, with a little bit of butter melting on the top. mmmmmmmmmm! :)
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
SNOW-ver kill
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
so here we snow again...
just wasn't enough.
thanks to all who have been commenting lately. it warms the cockles of my heart. wherever they may be. i've never quite figured that out. do you see them in this picture?
anyway...keep the comments coming. i need something to read while i am snowed in. still. it's the groundhog's fault. really. i think i hate the groundhog. really.
Monday, February 8, 2010
I am....
I shoveled for 2 more hours today.
....sore.
See above.
....cranky.
Hearing that we are supposed to get up to 10 more inches of snow tomorrow/Wednesday does not make me happy.
....irritated.
Please quit blaming my teachers when your kid doesn't tell you something big like, oh, I don't know, they aren't doing well in the class. Oh, and please quit complaining that they have a "c" in the class. Math is their best subject, not Grammar. Deal with that. I'm sorry to be the first to inform you that your child is not the genius you think.
....thankful.
My dad had hip replacement surgery today and it went well.
We still have our power and many people don't.
My job is way better than it was a few months ago.
I have good neighbors.
My brother is awesome.
My BFF is also awesome.
Shoveling copious amounts of snow is a good way to burn off the calories obtained from Super Bowl parties.
I have a heated house.
I have the sweetest puppy EVER! :)
....glad that my thankful list is way longer than my complaining list. :)
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Here comes the sun...
That, my dear readers, is my neighbor's car. Seriously.All my hard work!!! :)
I haven't been completely lazy, lo these many days off. Wanna see what I've accomplished? Well, aside from all the laundry that I've done...
It is so open and airy and PERFECT for the summer! I've also done this: you know, seeing how it is Single-Awareness Day next Sunday.
Today is Super Bowl Sunday!!! My 'Boys aren't in it this year so I will be rooting for the Colts to beat the Saints. My roommate doesn't like football [I pray for her. ;) ] however, because she is *ahem* trapped at home, we are going to have our own mini Super Bowl party. Pizza, guacamole, brownies. Yep, we are good to go. :)
No school tomorrow. No big surprise there. Tuesday isn't looking good, either, and we are supposed to get MORE snow on Tuesday night. Another 6 to 8 inches. Seriously?!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Ladies and Gentlemen, may I present to you.....
This is miss raven braving the snow this morning:and did I mention that it is STILL SNOWING???
Friday, February 5, 2010
oh yes, the excellent news...
NO SCHOOL TODAY!!!!!! yea me! school was canceled today because of the HUGMONGOUS snow storm that is bearing down upon us. seriously. it is HUGE. no, really. that isn't an exaggeration. it is like a monster storm (it really helps if you read those last two words in a scary, monster-type voice). the weather people say that this is shaping up to be one of the worst storms the area has ever seen. 30 inches of snow. that's alot of snow. i hope we don't lose power.
my roommate and i braved the crowds at the grocery store this morning. it wasn't all that bad, really. we had to wait in line for about 15 minutes, but they had everything i wanted so i was happy. just as we were checking out it started to snow. we made it home with no problems. phew.
miss raven and i went for a brisk walk. by the time we got home she was voicing her displeasure at having to be out in the cold. we won't be going for a walk again for a while. 30 inches of snow? hmmmm.....outside potty time isn't going to be fun.
right now she is laying next to me and snoring. i wish you could hear her. it is sweet and funny at the same time. one of her ears is straight up in the air and i swear that she knows i am typing about her. she is smart like that. ;)
i love a good snow day. especially when it is a FRIDAY snow day!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
I feel like a rollercoaster....
up. down. up. down. that pretty much sums up my emotions as of late. i know that if i was more grounded, if i trusted more, i would probably be more stable. can i blame it on the wii? remember, it did tell me that i was unbalanced.
yesterday was bad. today, not so much. ok news, pretty good news, excellent news. all that, in that order, today. what looked helpless now isn't. it may not be exactly what i want but it is better than what i had to look forward to yesterday. my reward for trusting? not sure.
can't share the ok or the pretty good news yet. i will when i can, i promise. i can, however, share the excellent news.
well, i said i could share it. i didn't say i would share it. not tonight anyway. i'm tired and i am going to bed. besides. the six of you that actually follow my blog won't be reading this until tomorrow, anyway. ;)
oh--i am open to questions, just like last week when i got a whopping ZERO to answer.
have a HAPPY, HAPPY friday! :)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
In the midst of all this....
I tend to worry about things I can't control. I like control. I like to be in control. I was a teacher and am now a principal. My life is about control.
I have recently been confronted by a situation that radically affects me that I have no control over, whatsoever. None. Zero. Zilch. Nada. To say that I am panicking would be an understatement. This situation I am involved in right now is not of my own making and frankly is pretty darned unfair, if I do say so myself. And the fact that I can't really control the outcome; I can't make it work out the way I want, is driving me crazy.
(I'm sorry I can't be more specific. There will be a time when I can, just not now.)
After reading someone else's blog today, someone who really doesn't know me and doesn't know my situation, but does know about life, I realized that I have to accept that there are some things I can't control. I can't control the weather. I can't control the #*$%$& groundhog seeing his $*#$&#$ shadow. And I can't control this. I can only roll with what is and try to remember and to keep reminding myself, that God is in control. Not me. Him. Not me. Oh, how I struggle with that. How I chafe against that. How I have several issues with that.
In the midst of all this, I have to trust. Right now, trust is not easy for me. At all. And it hasn't been for a while. I feel like I have trusted, only to have that trust shaken to its very core and now I am extremely hesitant to give it back. Any of it. It is hard to trust someone that you still can't help being angry with. I don't want to put myself out there AGAIN only to have the rug yanked out from underneath me AGAIN.
But what other alternative do I have? I could worry, and honestly, I probably still will, but it isn't going to do me any good. It won't change the situation, my worry. It will only make me stress out worse and make me cranky and irritable because I will either (a) have a horrendous headache (b) eat everything that isn't nailed down and then feel guilty because of it or (c) both (a) and (b).
So, I am trying to remember and remind myself....again....that God is sovereign and in control. Things will work out the way he has already ordained. I'm trying.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Decisions, decisions....
Guess what? It's SNOWING outside right now! I despise winter (what? you didn't know that? really, you should visit my blog more often.) however, even I am not opposed to a good snow day every now and then. Especially when I need a break from over-indulged, spoiled, whining children and parents and teachers. We are supposed to get somewhere between 4-6 inches before tomorrow morning, on top of what we got over the weekend. And speaking of weekends, it is supposed to snow AGAIN this weekend. The last I heard about that was that it is supposed to be WORSE than the snowpocalypse of December (I fully confess that I did not come up with that lovely word on my own. I saw it in the paper and am borrowing.). Worse, huh? Better run to Safeway and stock up on bread, milk, and toilet paper because that's what we do here when the threat of snow looms large upon us.
The Wii told me today that I have good posture. This was while I was doing the "Triangle Pose." Of course, during the Palm Tree it told me I was unbalanced. I'm still trying to decide if it meant physically or mentally unbalanced. Hmmmmm. I'll have to get back to you on that one. At least it didn't scold me sarcastically today about my afternoon snack consumption.
The Biggest Loser is on tonight. Have I ever told you, my faithful 5 followers, how much I double {heart} the Biggest Loser? Oh, how I do! If I could have Jillian train me for just a week.....I would cry and puke and maybe even yell back at her, but I would LOVE it! I can't for the life of me figure out the people who get on that show and COMPLAIN about the workouts. Maybe the first couple of seasons, yes, but, c'mon! You have to know by now what it is all about! There are a million people who would LOVE to be chosen to be on that show and the ones that get on there and complain make me want to SCREAM!
Ok. Ten Things Tuesday--because I am now in the mood:
Ten Things I Remember From Growing Up in the 80's
1. Hammer pants
2. Leg warmers
3. Banana clips
4. Jelly shoes
5. Ataris
6. Walkin Like an Egyptian
7. Wham!
8. Valley girls (gag me with a spoon!)
9. Texas-sized homecoming mums. If you didn't grow there, you won't get it. Sorry. Ask me nice and I might show you a picture sometime. Maybe.
10. Slam books
I realized the other day as I was talking to one of my students about something that I (insert LOUD audible gulping sound here) sounded just like my mother! Do you remember when you were growing up how you swore by all that was good, righteous, and holy in this world that you would NEVER (with a capital N) say the things that your mother said. Well, I do, and on a regular basis. After coming to that startling realization I decided that I am proud of the fact that I sound like my mother. She raised two intelligent, capable, well-adjusted children by saying the things that she said. I don't necessarily agree with everything she did but she did the best she knew how and I am proud to sound like her. And I wish with all my heart I could tell her that.
Tomorrow is supposed to be Wordless Wednesday. Let me tell you one thing. If I get the day off, I am sure I will have plenty to say! ;)
Monday, February 1, 2010
Not me (or my dog) Monday!
I did not spend the entire weekend relaxing and not worrying at all about where I am going to live come March. After all, being told by your landlord that you have to move out by the end of the month is an extremely stress-enducing thing, thus preventing a person from being able to think straight, let alone relax. And, as everyone who knows me knows...I freak out about EVERYTHING, so there is no way I didn't freak out about this.
I am not writing this post while watching the Bachelor. I hate that show because I hate watching one man "date" several women at a time. It's worse than a sorority house. I would never watch something so, so.....well, anyway. I only watch educational tv.
miss raven did not sniff around the small patch of snow-less grass looking for the perfect spot to do her, um, business, only to plunge her little front paws in a huge (well, huge for her) drift of snow so that she could create, well, yellow snow.
I am not prepared to bodily harm that stupid groundhog if he even dares to see his shadow tomorrow. I love winter and never, ever want it to end. Ever. Really.
I do not talk back to the Wii when it complains when I step on it in the afternoon. I do not give it sarcastic answers when it asks me if I am eating too many afternoon snacks. I don't care what a machine says about me.
How about you? Is there anything you haven't done and would like to share? Do tell!! :)