I wasn't going to blog today.  I am trying to work through some things right now and I hate that so many of my posts have been sad, morose, drama-filled, or, you fill in the blank with the appropriate depressing adjective.
I am sitting on my couch watching a chick-flick and trying not to feel over-looked, left behind, lonely, sad....I was playing a game on Face Book and trying not to cry.  Lame, I know.  
I woke up this morning and had a panic attack.  In my mind and in my heart I know that things are going to work out for me in the home situation,  (An interesting aside, though, I discovered another *ahem* untruth yesterday concerning something that my roommate and I were told in regards to where we are living now.  Every time something comes to light I just have to shake my head and wonder about people.  Just tell the truth already.) but this morning I was really freaking out.  We are in a time-sensitive situation now and the shorter the time gets, the more freaked out I get.
As I am sitting here, playing a game, trying not to think about where I am in life as opposed to where I thought I would be by this time in my life (you know, married, a couple of kids, a mini-van, etc.), and trying not to cry, oh, and trying (and failing) to not eat EVERYTHING in the house, I hear a very sweet (sweet to me) sound.
miss raven is snuggled under some blankets next to me and be next to me I mean RIGHTNEXTTOME.  She is snoring and it is like music to my ears.  Every once in a while she will wake up, sit up, and look at me with sleepy face.  If you have a dog, you know what sleep face looks like.  When I hear that, when I see that, I know everything is going to be ok.  At least, I am pretty sure it is.  She depends on me for everything and, at this childless stage in my life,(yes, the clock is ticking.  LOUDLY.) she is everything to me and I will take care of her.
On another happy note...I actually WON something in a giveaway on another blog!  I am SO excited!  I have a few blogs that I follow, mostly because they are funny and make me laugh, like Taylor, or I can semi-identify with them, like E, on whose blog I won birdie placemats.  I so NEVER win ANYthing, so I am so stupidly excited that I won these!  I can't wait to get them!
I will try to write some happier posts in the future.  I promise.
((((((((BFF))))))))
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